Unexpected Visitors

I am blogging. That means I am allowing my words to escape me.

Already, I have typed and deleted my intro. I am way over thinking this.

What's funny is that I used to have a good friend that I joked about this with. Typing and deleting...re-typing. If you are a Facebook member, you will know what I am talking about. If you are chatting with someone and you see the little "typing" bubble and then the bubble turns to a green circle, you know that the person you are chatting with is deleting what they wrote. It drives me CRAZY. Just be honest right? Spit it out! (I am SUCH a hypocrite!!!!) Anyway, we decided to coin the phrase "Live and Die by the Bubble". So relevant.

Anyway, just a forethought here...Why is it so hard to just say what you mean to say? John Mayer, you should write a song about that. I think it would be a big hit. Just sayin.

So, I will open this blog of mine with a few thoughts and then I will decide if I should continue with this new venture.

1: I just saw a Mirena commercial about birth control. (Random opening to a Blog, I know)...Anyway, in the commercial the lady says "I am not ready for another kid.....For now"

This brings me to topic #1. Zane. He was born 7 weeks ago. He wasn't planned. I had the Mirena IUD for 4 years. (If you don't care about my reproduction, close the blog now) I was sick and the Dr found that the Mirena IUD had implanted into my uterine wall. The Dr took the IUD out. I got pregnant the next day. OK fine, it was like a couple of months later. But that's neither here nor there...My point? I am fertile.
(Sidenote: This isn't to be taken lightly. I truly mean that. I realize that this is a gift. I am blessed and grateful for things unplanned. Unexpected visitors if you will. But I never decided whether or not I wanted another baby.)
Jump back to today. Zane is 7 weeks old. He's growing way too fast. I might want another one.

B: Friendships. This year has been a hard one for me. I have lost friends. I'm 37. I am established. I am unstable, but still, I am established in this world. Yet I managed to offend and lose friends. Do you even know how much that sucks? Google it. It does suck.
Anyway, I was randomly going about my business, and BAM (EMERIL EMPHASIS), someone said that they wanted to be my new BFF2. Here I am. 37. Making new friends. Unexpected new friends. And to boot, this girl, this person I have known for 5 whole minutes, makes me want to re-discover me. She makes me laugh. She makes me want to BLOG. If you know me, you know that NOBODY makes me do anything. I am more stubborn than a mule. I'd win. Seriously.

Anyway, this unexpected friend is so inspiring as a matter of fact, that I created this very blog because of her. I don't even know what her favorite color is or where she went to college. But I do know this. She loves the Lord and she makes me want to be a better person. That is the kind of friendship that God knew we needed before we asked. He's a righteous dude I say.

Speaking of God, I just have to say this. I don't know what I am doing from one minute to the next. I don't know why I am writing a blog. I don't know why God blessed me with this amazing child that I am nursing at this very minute while I am typing. I don't know why God allowed me to meet (well actually I haven't met her) this random stranger who has inspired me. I don't know much of anything. But I do know this:

You'd better know that in the end
Its better to say too much
Then never say what you need to say

Say what you need to say. Or start a blog.

Oh, and thank God for Unexpected Visitors. You never know how they will change your life. Amen???